New at college. There's this girl in the club same as me. She was the first person to be genuinely nice to me. As I sit back today and think, she has always been nice to me. Meaning I've always been on the receiving end. I feel like a super douche because I haven't done anything in comparison. I want to repay her kindness, but I can't even think of anything nice to say. Sometimes I think if I even know how to be nice. I just want to show my gratitude and stop being such a brickhead. It's frustrating how I didn't realize it at the moment and I'm only realising it now.

Posting this rant here because why not, and most of y'all seem adults meaning you might have experienced something similar.