I would always read posts on NoFap for motivation so I never thought I'd be making one myself but here I go.
I discovered p when I was 6 years old and for some reason it drove my hormones wacky and had me saying things I shouldn't say at a young age while living life through a fogged lense. When I got older and discovered PMO it became the addiction we know it as and I truly believed it didn't make me as motivated as my personal belief in my potential.
The most days I ever gone on nofap was 14. I ended up relapsing and have been stuck in a loop ever since to the dismay of my previous relationships. PMO made me lethargic and complacent. I can't remember the last time I could fight the urge more than a couple of days.
Right now my focus has been put towards quitting weed and PMO has not been a thought on my mind at all. I have a very supportive beautiful girlfriend I live with but she's been busy with med school so I've been working on my personal goals. She's VERY supportive on my nofap journey but this is something I must ultimately conquer myself.
So far I can say I love this boost of energy I'm feeling and that even while fighting my battle with moderating my weed use I can say that I'm happy. I'm a decently active guy but consistency has been my worst issue so I've been listening to David Goggins and running everyday the past 2 weeks.
I hope to finally achieve something I never believed I could do and snuff this addiction out for GOOD. If I can be consistent with my bad habits, I can learn to be consistent with my good ones and create a positive loop.
As for side affects we've noticed a boost in my aggression, which in my case I need a healthy amount of so running has helped alot. I also meditate and try to be mindful twice a day.
If you're a random reader like myself, even if you don't have a reddit account, I can say we are all here for a reason and that is because we believe we are capable of more. We must understand that this is WAR within us and we must not falter until we have found balance. So the withdrawal will be hell for me the longer I go, but I demand the most out of my life. The energy I get is literally almost intolerable sometimes but this just means my body is recovering from years of artificial stimulus.
This energy is what it means to be a MAN, to wake up everyday and want more for yourself even though all you want to do is lay there and die sometimes. Even though you get night sweats, jitters, chills, CANT SLEEP ect.
I feel like a child again in that everyday I wake up, I'm thankful for what I have and excited for a new adventure, no matter how tedious.
Thanks for reading and keep fighting the good fight. Semen retention is life changing.