25 y.o almost on day 500 booze free. I'll tell you this. My dad died about 2 months ago. Very suddenly, my 57 year old pops was gone. The past 2 months, have been incredibly rough, but I've thankfully stayed sober. I was thinking today about how this would have affected me had it happened say in 2015 when I was near my rock bottom. Just thinking about this devastated me but also filled me with a tremendous amount of gratitude. Had my dad died in 2015. I may have drank myself to death. Maybe not, maybe I would have found a way to get clean, but odds are that I would not be able to deal with both my addiction and my grief. Also, I would not have the nearly 2 years of great photos I got with my dad throughout my sober time. I'm really fucking thankful that I have those photos, as I hate taking photos when I was a drunk, fat, and miserable person.
Life is fragile guys. Love your loved ones and let them know about it. Treat yourself with kindness everyday and be grateful that you have the mustard in you to TRY and TRY to get sober. It can be fucking hard sometimes but it is absolutely necessary for you to deal with the crazy shit that live can hand you.