He wished he could explain that he didn't actually say anything about DC's kids and it was actually Kevin Lee. But he knows that he has to double down for appearances. Jones is tired. He wants to go back and fight so he can have feelings, his big worry though is that he won't get the rush he used to feel. You see, Jon became a fighter because that's how he was able to experience feelings. When he fought, he wasn't empty inside. But then he started beating everyone and he started feeling empty again- the rush disappeared. In an effort to see if he could get feelings back, he purposely let Vitor get an armbar. But that didn't work and it really hurt. Then he decided to start fighting people at their own strengths and not train. Somehow he kept winning. He outwrestled an Olympic alternate, boxed with a lanky Swedish guy, and clinched a big Brazilian guy who is good at the clinch. Nothing. When he discovered he would be fighting an Olympian, he was thrilled: this is the rush he needed. But he was worried he wouldn't get it. So he did lots of cocaine and then decided to wrestle DC. He got a bit of a rush, but nothing special. He then decided that if he was going to feel anything, he would need to up the ante. So he decided to try and run down a pregnant woman with a car. The impact didn't do much for him, but being wanted by police got him aroused. Unfortunately, he was suspended and forced to undergo a lifestyle change. When he fought OSP, it was too easy. He was back, but he still felt empty and he couldn't get hard. He used to think about choking men to death and that would get it up. Then it was running people over. Now, none of these things worked. So he took off brand cialis in the hopes that he could just get an erection without having to think about murder. This led to a positive test. Now he's back. Deep down though, he is hoping that his ring rust will give him a challenge so he can feel alive again.