I appreciate your supportive thoughts here. I’ve kind of done this — not focusing on money as much — already. In the beginning of the pandemic, I had focused on transitioning from Education (which btw wasn’t even my degree) to IT. I did the research, applied myself, got a certification, and got a first position in software support (the example I mentioned in this same thread). It turned out to be toxic. And, as you’ve seen, a lot of tech layoffs have taken place in the US. I left that position, gave 2 weeks’ notice and left on a good enough note.

Meanwhile, yes, have been substitute teaching and even more so, doing gig work. My uncle (from my father’s side of the family) doesn’t take the work I do seriously. He’s a privileged boomer, well intentioned I think, but very out of touch with the work world of today. He’s always been “successful” financially, but has always come from an extremely different perspective than me. Eh, that’s a whole other topic lol. It’s just been hard dealing with the thought of any family not being happy with me and seeing me as a failure. I fvcking hate it.

Oh, but anyway, yes. I do actually need to make enough money. But that said, it’s not the first thing I’m looking at with positions. I do want some kind of stability and good enough money to be able to enjoy life — road-trips, hobbies, dating again and hopefully finding a new life partner. Lots to get done. And it’s overwhelming at times, as a sensitive person.

Great point you mention here!