So much for simplicity, told ya. You owe me a sandwich. With your situation, and how do i explain the reason God didnt change things? Dude, this is from my own evil existence and what I have lost from being the way I can be. We get in the way of what God wants to do. We have freewill, a gift like nothing else. No angel, demon, even Lucifer has nothing in their arsenal quite like it. Physics has laws, the jungle has laws, human nature has its code, but we can override human nature with choice. I am deeply sorry to have read your news. I am not trying to rationalize anything, but explain what I have observed and analyzed my entire life. You, like I said before, are enduring something i do not know, will never know, because I have no sons or daughters. If you have found offense in any of this, thats isnt my intent. Deal with it on your own. If you have found solace, that wasnt my intent either, take it as you will. I mean only to educate. Do what thou wilt, and choose your own paths.