I decided to stop going to church in April after 27 years as a Mormon. This week, I read all of His Dark Materials. It made me cry several times and i feel whole for the first time in years.

I never imagined leaving the Mormon church even though my mission was a militaristic enforcer of getting high numbers by any means necessary. I eventually moved to a utah ward and was blown away by the level of manipulation and micromanaging of the Bishop and EQP (who have BBQs with the stake pres). They are best buddies and gleefully took pride in pulling me aside every week if they could find any sin... "Hey I saw you weeding your yard last sunday afternoon," "Hey I noticed you missed home teaching this month," "Hey I noticed you missed second and third hour last week" (ya my boy was sick), "Hey I noticed your tithing seems low and you got a nice car" (ya I pay it based on posttax income not pretax and the car is used 5 yrs old but looks new), "Hey I need you to help so-and-so put in a lawn," "Hey I need you to help mow the lawn of the family with seven kids," "Hey I need you to help fix the wall of another family with seven kids" (they have two teenage boys, why cant they do it), "Hey so-and-so needs some financial help and youre his hometeacher," etc. I also got told that "thinkers like me go inactive." Church is an absolute spiritual low every week, total negative energy that these two clowns feed off, and they would love nothing more than to prove they knew I would go inactive, so I still go because I love God, but the church itself is a nightmare, even worse for my wife, and when this Bishop is released the EQP has been lobbying for being next Bishop, and we will not be going back. I would never want my kids to have the awful experiences I've had in the church.

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