You just described me and even the age fits. But I also failed uni over dreams, can't support myself and realised my dreams are impossible. Told myself I'd end it if that should happen so now I'm in an awkward predicament I guess.

I've honestly got no idea how to overcome the issue of social anxiety. I don't see myself getting better over time. Unless I get a social equivalent of a training bag that can take all my awkwardness and not really mind. Yep that comparison was fucking awkward too.

I think we can take a lot of shit from life when we're not alone, but the stick has 2 ends. I've always found myself on the less fortunate one. Sorry for not being able to give you any advice and just going on about myself. But at least there's someone else in a somewhat similar situation. Maybe we can connect somehow.