depression while on fieldwork

I am not afraid to admit that I failed my fieldwork. I failed because I perhaps made the wrong choice after being coerced by my CI to tell her I was planning on ending my fieldwork and she turned around, brought her manager in and dismissed me first.

I know exactly how you feel because I wanted to drop out of school during my level II. I was in a very abusive relationship with my CI who knocked down my confidence to nothing and would treat me like the trash beneath her feet behind closed doors. I also was commuting to a hospital in midtown NYC which was a 2-2.5 hour commute each way. I would cry on my way to work, on the bus, on the way home, every single day. I had documented proof of the abuse and how I was carrying an entire inpatient caseload at WEEK TWO. When I reported it to my school, it was met with, "Keep going" (Which I know was code for: We need to keep this FW site).

At week 9 I finally had enough and after telling my mom I was going to quit, I finally told my CI enough was enough, after she had been asking me for weeks when I was going to drop out. After I was dismissed, I appealed to the OT committee at my school and read a 5 page paper I had written outlining every detail of the fieldwork from not being supported by my department, to the disgusting things my CI said to me when no one was around, to how I tried to remediate every issue that was asked of me which was still not enough in my CI's eyes. I was able to get back into the program the following year, but because my program was a 5 year BS/MS, they made me retake an entire year of courses (that I had already taken but they "renamed them") instead of just taking another level II and graduating.

I'm five years out of school and have now transitioned out of OT, but I will never forget the BS I went through to get this degree. Take care of yourself, seek help and support where you can and don't let some shitty person be the reason why you don't reach your goals.

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