Hello there bro,
I'm commenting on your one-year-old post, hopefully I'm still of help, or provide any kinds of useful information that can help you.
I came across your latest post on the dating subreddit and that got me curious, because aside from the seven times being cheated on, it seems like there is still something going on within you, and that led me to this one.
I would never claim to be an expert or therapist of any kinds, I'm just a fellow human being with my very own problems and still trying to figure them out one by one. Along the way I found something useful for me so I'm sharing them here with hope that they can also work for you. And this is going to be one long reply.