Hi. First of all, I am sorry for your loss and that you are having a hard time coping. Everyone deals differently. If this was just a month ago, it is still so fresh, so make sure to be kind to yourself.

I couldn't eat after my loss, and my doctor was so concerned she called my therapist to tell on me and make sure I wasn't eating. My therapist basically told her to give it a rest I was grieving. I had to really force myself to eat as nothing tasted good. This is something I let myself get away with and had a hard time returning to normal eating habits.

I started smoking after my loss, drinking a lot and needing anxiety meds to get through a day (I was having multiple panic attacks a week, and had to work with a girl who was the same amount of pregnant I was). I told my dcotor about the smoking and she was like "do whatever you want". I was like "whaaaa"! So I think even doctors see that sometimes you just need coping mechanisms to get through. After a couple months they told me to stop, especially if I was going to get pregnant again. But I allowed myself those couple months. I will say it was hard to quit.

Trigger warning---*** I will say I was only able to kick all these habits when I got pregnant again as it was for the baby, and not for me. That is something to keep in mind as well. I was able to eat because I had to, not smoke because I had to, etc. I probably could have developed healthier coping mechanisms that I was allowed to continue during pregnancy, but I was just so focused on surviving. And that is OK.

That is just my story, not sure if it helps or not.