I was diagnosed with psychotic depression Summer 2011, I made a graph of my GPA. (x-post from /r/depression) [OC]

I'm much better. I feel like I got so incredibly lucky.

When I realized I didn't want to go to graduate school, I started applying for jobs as a software developer. My major was pure math and I'd been programming for fun since I was 11-12 so I figured I might be able to pull it off. I got rejected by Google and a few others, but managed to get a great job with a local company. They offered me more money than I ever thought I'd get out of college and never even asked for my GPA because they were so impressed with my other accomplishments before the slip occurred. I've been there a year and a half now, got a big raise after the first year, and just got a big 10% Christmas bonus. It's the best job I've ever had (and the only one, but still).

The real world gave me a kick I very much needed. "Kick" might be the wrong word. It made me feel like I'm a part of something. The feeling of isolation is gone, even though I'm still far from family. I'm friend with my coworkers, my boss, and it feels like what I do every day matters. I've regained all the motivation I once had. I met a great girl and it's the best relationship I've ever been in. I'm at her house even right now for the holidays (she's sleeping in right now).

There's no more eating alone. I know that sounds silly, but it caused me so much stress and shame during college. I had no friends, and everybody would eat together in groups in the dining halls. It's not that eating alone itself was so bad; it's that it represented at the time my total failure to socially integrate at all. I still technically eat alone every once in a while today, but it doesn't represent anything anymore. I eat with friends just as much, or more, than I eat alone, and when I eat alone it's actually by choice now.

I was never, ever invited to eat with anybody. I tried unsuccessfully a few times to just sort of sit at a table with some people at it, but I found that I just was too shy to make it work. I had no friends whom I could have invited to eat with me. And I couldn't just push my way into a social group that already existed.

I remember I once hatched a plan. The plan was that, since there were a few very popular tables that filled up quickly, I'd get there early and sit at one of those tables before it filled up. Then surely other people would sit around me. I tried it, and they didn't. My sitting there had caused a table that otherwise was filled to capacity every night to be empty other than me.

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