I've been living in Germany/Munich for 2.5 years now and I like it less and less every day.

I actually used to love it, before I moved and after. I like the language, lifestyle, culture, food. I got over the annoyance of nothing being open after 8pm and on Sundays and holidays pretty quickly. I am fluent in German and understand the local dialect and have a good knowledge of it. What I especially loved was how easy it was to enjoy life even if you are alone.

On to the bad stuff. People here are polite, but they are not friendly. They like to think they are so open-minded and liberal but they are really not. In Germany, you'll just never be accepted as "one of them", they might and probably will treat you nice but you'll always be a foreigner. And I don't even know how many times people have asked me if I speak German or saw my name and decided it would be better to talk to me in English. It's incredibly offensive and every time someone does that I feel rejected and more determined to gtfo as soon as possible. Though, admittedly, I've only had such experiences in Munich and all others in the mountains of in smaller towns have been very pleasant. But I still doubt they would accept me even if I spoke with a flawless accent and changed my name. Another thing I really hate but can't really blame on the country as it was the same in my home country is how lonely and isolated I am. It's like no one wants to have anything to do with me, everyone already has their own friends and I really lack the social skills to somehow be accepted somewhere. Yes, I do have clubs and play sports. Or at least I did before I got too lazy to show up. Didn't work, everyone prefers people who are more German, less fat, more talkative, whatever. I don't know.

So, as I said, I really want to move, probably to Austria. And also I really don't. I still feel connected to this country, even if everyone else would probably think I am crazy for that. I used to like it. But what good are all those things I liked when I can't bring myself to do them? I am failing my education because I am too lazy to study and failing at building a life here. I guess it's mostly my fault but it probably would have been different if I didn't have to go for days without speaking to a human being.