Did anyone else get their anxiety from toxic stress as a child?

My parents used to have really big fights, my mom told me about the times I was too little to remember, when he treated her like shit and would be physically abusive towards her. Just now I recalled a memory when I was maybe 6 or 7 and hearing her cry after a big fight. I wasn't ever a target to physically abuse but I for sure think I was mentally abused by my father. He has a very unhealthy way of bringing up his children when they are old enough: scream, tell, tell them they are worthless and shit. But then I started maturing emotionally and started thinking by myself and I realized what he says is just to hurt me, so I mostly stopped caring. although the fights didn't just stop but I would take part in them, I would usually act as a mediator. around a year ago there was a huge fight that got violent and I had to call the police on my father. I still remember how he begged me to stay (since I was the one who called the cops on him, they told him if he can change my mind and let him come back home then they will let him) and while crying my eyes out I laughed in his face. I also think this incident gave me a a very little PTSD but I didn't tell anyone about it, it all would come back when a saw a police car. I thought I have failed as a daughter. I know that this is probably very chaotic but I may also have been under toxic stress for the most of my life. Also this is the first time I've told this anyone except one person.

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