I'm sorry that there's not much I can do to actually help you, but here's my shorted (but still long even when shortened) story.
So for 14 years I was a psychological mute. That means that there was nothing wrong with me on a physical level that made it so I couldn't speak, but a debilitating mental disorder.
I always attracted the odd ones, the people who wanted something to control. And I, being a small effeminate dude, was the perfect target. I never had any friends that weren't my sister's friends first. And even they just sort of put up with me.
With that said, I have been in quite a few relationships. Rarely were they healthy and were with guys and gals. One girl cheated on me, one girl broke up with me when I expressed that I wasn't ready to have sex. The last girl sexually assaulted me very violently. The first boy moved away, the second couldn't deal with my mutism any longer. The next boy also sexually assaulted me very, very violently. At that point I was half way through high school.
Left rather apathetic and jaded, I decided to try to test out and take my chances in college. I was in college for a while before I was asked to help teach an online class. I needed to grade stuff and whatnot. And there I heard of this guy. There was this one dork who kept failing all of his stupid papers because he would answer the question "Explain some of the pressures that led to the start of WW2." with some extreme space war story.
The stories were absolutely fantastic, but not what the teacher wanted. So I ended up tutoring him. Long story short, we got to know each other online and ended up dating that way. Since it was all online, it didn't matter that I was a mute in person. It gave me a way to really connect with him that I couldn't accomplish in person.
I thought it was going to stay that way, online, for a very long time because of the distance between us but one day not so long ago, that changed. He set it up with my siblings, flew across the country, and surprised me in person.
It was the third best moment in my entire life. But then right after came the insecurity. I already had someone leave me once because of my disability, was he going to be the same way? It wasn't like online, he was going to have to sit there and wait for me to write out every response. There was no way he wasn't going to get tired of me. It was just a matter of time before I'd lose him too.
But he graciously proved me wrong. Every insecurity I had, he destroyed. Every worry, he disproved. He was kind, polite, sweet, understanding, and above all else: he valued me despite the disability that really controlled my life.
He lived with me for around a month and for the first time in my life I was comfortable, happy, accepted. I felt truly loved and valued.
It's another long story (that I don't mind telling, I just don't walk to talk your ear off lol), but I have since broken my mutism and am slowly learning how to speak again. But that wouldn't have happened without him. He said he didn't care if I could ever speak because he loved me, not a voice. So it's not like he was planning to fix me or anything like that. And as wonderful as it is to speak again, I wouldn't have minded never regaining the ability if he would love me regardless. And I'm proud to say that I'm going to marry him.
I guess what I have to tell you is to keep on keeping on, really. I had totally given up on most things in general when this guy came into my life. Get involved in things, try to connect with people in your community. It'll be hard at first, but you'll probably get more comfortable over time.
If I could do it, you can do it too. I believe in you, internet stranger.