I can't come to terms with both my faith and the gender dysphoria I've been dealing with. I'm depressed, tired, anxious and have been having suicidal thoughts. The Bible is pretty clear in its position on people like me. And I don't have the strength or energy to fight this for a lifetime. I'm already spent. So if God isn't gonna fix me and I can't simply make it go away. Then what's the point to bother anymore? Evangelicals pretty much have condemned "trannies" like me. I'm not gonna find any love or support from them. Just more misery, pain and a lot of hate. And I'm already in a fragile state, mentally and emotionally. I just sick and tired of hearing how evil I am, how horrible I am, how people like me should just die or be killed. That takes it's toll on an individual after awhile. I have no self confidence, no self worth and the supposed "hope" that I am suppose to find is nowhere to be found. I can't be mentally healthy and happy, and still be an evangelical Christian. So I've left it behind. I simply have nothing more to give.