Hey mate! I was in a situation not too dissimilar to yours not long ago. I broke both wrists and couldn't even wipe my ass. I got depressed but got over it. A month after I felt okay I basically completely tore 2 ligaments in each ankle by random happenstance. I've always been an athlete first and foremost and all of my other passions and talents were enabled by my belief in my body. When my health got taken away, I stopped reading, socializing, eating, thinking, living... I went from aspiring bodybuilder to skeleton and couldn't have cared less. Then my dad, who was helping support me (I paid a tiny bit of rent and any food I ate) beat me and lied to the cops I called and got me sent to jail. Homeless, broke, depressed and crippled I didn't do much of anything but mope, work enough to subsist, smoke until I was despondent and wait to die. I lost all my friends and everything important to me. Then as I thought about suicide daily, a thought slowly occurred to me. That thought was that life has no meaning, nothing will change if I accomplish more as opposed to less. Life has no purpose it's just a beautiful gift that can be enjoyed and appreciated regardless of circumstances. There are people out there happy, even though they don't have clean water, they sleep next to their filth, it takes them all day to find enough food to subsist and they don't have a single luxury in their life. How is this possible? Because they know that life is a gift, it's yours to do with as you'd like. I started lifting through the pain. I started ignoring my newfound social anxiety and talking to people about anything, even if it was nonsensical bullshit because my mind was a bit... Scattered. I started reading books I knew I'd like. I started eating when it made me feel nauseous. I started to live like I only had so much time to do it. And I got better, not quickly but I did. It's been 3 years on the fifteenth since I broke both my wrists and I've never felt better. My ankles still hurt every day, but I don't notice it anymore. I still lost a couple people I thought were good friends, but I found new ones. If you want to sit in misery for the next 20 years because of back pain, that's your choice. If you want to get over it because you have an awesome girlfriend that you're not treating as well as you know you could, because you've got all these awesome talents that are just out of practice, because there's a big beautiful world out there that you've never seen. Well, that's your choice too. Do what you like friend, I can't do it for you. Just don't make excuses because no matter how well you do, somebody is making more out of a shittier situation and no matter what you do, somebody is making less out of a great situation. I believe in you, you'll bounce back. All you have to do is try every day. It's hard but you're strong!!