Been this way my whole life. I really enjoy helping other people realize what they can do. Or showing them alternative ways to get what they want. I tend to have a differing, simple, logical perspective compared to most.

I'm trying to do more for me because I'm not happy with my life lately. It's very challenging because I love programming but I don't have any kind of card to link paypal to so I can work online. But I'm not really sure if I truly enjoy programming or if I just learned it to feel closer to my distant step father. The weird thing about programming is it's like a new form of literacy.

It affects how you see the world and solve problems. You could stop programming entirely and you would still think this way. If I gave up on programming I don't know if I could find anything as satisfying. I've always hated the idea of programming for a company. Everything I make is always 100% me and working under someone else would limit that which I wouldn't be able to stand. I would rather learn an entirely new thing and get paid for that I think.

I swing between wanting to write a game and wanting to pick up a new open source project. Neither keep my attention long enough to make real progress. I feel I would have more options had I better internet. My data is capped and no ports. Can't host a webserver, no server emulation, no streaming, can only upload small files and videos. But until Google graces my area with it's fiber I only have this, DSL, or dial up.