I’m not sure if this will make sense but I think part of the reason I’m having a tough time processing how I’m feeling on the inside is because I’ve been so numb to everything for the past 2 years it’s almost like my body and brain is relearning this emotions and feelings. I find my self realizing how much time I’ve been wasting by not truly placing myself in the moment and that honestly makes me never want to use again.

I was also very skeptical sharing how I felt on the internet because I didn’t really know if that would help, but honestly I didn’t have a choice because I’ve never been in such a low place in my life before. Thank you so much for your kind words, it truly does make me feel better and more hopeful.