I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow...is it okay for me to talk about these things?

As far as talking to him, lay what you have on the table. How often do you think of suicide?

At least once a day, but sometimes I think about it five times a day.

Do you have a plan? Have you self-harmed? Drugs/alcohol use? How are your moods? When was the last time you felt happy? Are you anxious all the time?

No, yes but not anymore, yes and I abused pot for four years but stopped smoking sometime in March, terrible, I don't remember a time I was ever genuinely happy, and yes I have been diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder when I was 12 (I'm 24 now.)

support groups, hotlines,

I appreciate the recommendation, but I refuse to go to groups of any kind and I don't use the phone unless I absolutely have to.

Mental hospitals are worthless, I was already in one in January and it made me distrust them. They may not be forever, but it made me feel more suicidal and untrustworthy of people. I know I said I don't care if I end up in a padded cell in my post, but to be honest I'd rather stay away from them at all. They're worthless.

I guess I'll never get better, but I really appreciate all of the time and thought you put into this comment.

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