As far as talking to him, lay what you have on the table. How often do you think of suicide?
At least once a day, but sometimes I think about it five times a day.
Do you have a plan? Have you self-harmed? Drugs/alcohol use? How are your moods? When was the last time you felt happy? Are you anxious all the time?
No, yes but not anymore, yes and I abused pot for four years but stopped smoking sometime in March, terrible, I don't remember a time I was ever genuinely happy, and yes I have been diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder when I was 12 (I'm 24 now.)
support groups, hotlines,
I appreciate the recommendation, but I refuse to go to groups of any kind and I don't use the phone unless I absolutely have to.
Mental hospitals are worthless, I was already in one in January and it made me distrust them. They may not be forever, but it made me feel more suicidal and untrustworthy of people. I know I said I don't care if I end up in a padded cell in my post, but to be honest I'd rather stay away from them at all. They're worthless.
I guess I'll never get better, but I really appreciate all of the time and thought you put into this comment.