I was on this spiral for a while and that I was pretty invulnerable but then I read Die by the Drop by Kaia Bennet, the majority of which consists of TW >! Soul crushing brutal r*pe !< and it actually made me feel physically ill. I ended up finishing it because I'd become so invested in the female MC's wellbeing that I wanted to see how a book like that could possibly end, but after that I took a long and well needed break and read only quirky contemporary and historical for a good minute.
I honestly would not reccomend that book to anyone, or at least not as a "romance". Maybe as a traumatic shock-horror novel, but not as a romance for sure