I think it's so rad that you came into a pro-Peloton subreddit, aired out your thoughts, and were met with (90%) support and encouragement. That's a testament to this community, and why I'm going to say: keep going and keep trying different instructors, different rides, etc. I saw that someone recommended Powerzone and you enjoyed it! Powerzone for me increased my confidence on the bike, and when I was ready for variety again, the other rides became even more enjoyable.

To your last sentence: "Maybe it's something I'll grow to love as I use it more." TOTALLY. But also, sometimes you'll love it less. Sometimes you'll be its biggest fan, and hopping on will feel effortless. Other times it feels like it will take everything out of you to do it. The best thing I try to remind myself when I'm in the latter state: even a ten-minute ride will make me feel good.