Does anyone else just assume people will reject you?

My personal appeal is short because I don't like acting like what others want to hear. I would much prefer being serious, boring, and straight on with facts and truth.

I don't like being myself because it just isn't appealing, while being a persona drives me tired in a short span and is probably subconsciously unconvincing. I don't know how to entertain people because most of what I enjoy isn't exciting for many people and what is relatable isn't something I feel like talking about - so partially myself to blame.

I don't think I can keep friends because I would have to be transparent enough that it would cause someone to get overwhelmed with self-awareness. People like the juicy details over the truth in fear of being reflective over their own flaws and life.

It all concludes with I am too selfish to make friends and my only friend could only be an identical copy of myself at this point of my life. I can have friends, just not people I can be myself around. It only matters if I am happy and I think I can conclude for the moment I am okay with this.

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