I'm at a different stage in my life now, but when I was 18, yeah, my life was like yours. No friends, no social activities or obligations. I did a little bit of volunteering but most days it wasn't necessary to even get out of my pajamas. The Sims was my chosen vice, too! I stayed up all night and slept all day so that I didn't really have to feel anything.

You're not alone, as isolating as the whole experience is. I'm sorry you're in the throes of it.

Just some thoughts: college isn't for everyone so don't think that's the only way to a fulfilling, "successful" life. It's not. You have time to figure out what it is you want your future to look like, and I promise there's a way to make it happen. I can remember exactly how I felt in your situation so I get not being very motivated to study for your GED, but if there's any way to try to get through it I'd recommend it. It opens a lot more doors for you, it's easier to do at this phase of life then 10 years down the line (although it's not impossible, that's not my point), and perhaps most importantly I think it might be a good self-esteem boost.

I learned pretty much everything for the first time in community college. I had to Google how to write an essay for my English class, it was the first time I ever wrote one.

But I bet you know a lot more than you think you do, and I bet you think your peers know a lot more than they actually do. Not meant to be a put down, it's just that without the comparisons in school we really don't know how to think of ourselves or intelligence, and after being in college I've been exposed to the types of education my peers got and it wasn't great.

I'm sorry you're going through all this. It sucks that you weren't given the education you deserved, or get a fair shot at one in school. I don't know if any of this was what you needed to hear, but felt compelled to reassure you. You're definitely not alone, and I remember how hard my life was as 18. I can tell you that it gets better though, it won't always be this hard.