So does anyone here actually use opiates just occasionally and has been doing so for a long time?

Hey :) first time poster here!!

I recently (2 years ago) found opiates (pills) to be my favorite type of drug. I'm one of those users who gets highly euphoric off of them and generally feel like a million bucks. I am an occasional user, however that may be because of how hard it is for me to find any (I'm not very open about my preference for pain killers, friends all judge me even though they smoke weed and do other drugs). Some, including my best friend, have the audacity to mumble "coming off pain killers" when I'm just in a melancholy mood and asked them a month ago if they could see if anyone they know could get some. Sorry, I could rant on and on about that hypocritical bullshit, especially because I quit smoking weed 4 months ago after graduating college and am currently working on getting into medical school....when they can't even stop smoking weed long enough to pass a drug test or figure out what they are going to do with there lives....just living like parasites off there parents (this only relates to the ones who are all "woe is me" and think things should be easy). Fuck, some still try to ask me to find weed for them or use my emergency wax, which I've saved for the fuck of it, when they can't find anything.... And I have helped them in before, usually letting them smoke some of my wax for free.

Back to the question, I have always found that I can control my drug use. I've tried a lot of drugs, mainly the ones I want to, and even stash various drugs for future use (got some acid and Molly stashed away for more than a year). I've found that when I begin binging with pain killers I start to feel guilty and decide to stop (except when I was smoking weed... I used to deal P's and grew a few crops.... I consider myself inventive and scientific). That being said, after about two months or so my appetite for that sweet feeling rears its ugly head and gets me on the search again.

Long story short: I hate hypocritical friends, I use pain killers very sporadically, and cut myself off either due to guilt or because of money management reasons.

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