I just wanted to chip and say that I was/am in your position... I might be hijacking your thread here but I can relate...

Before today, I last tripped about a month ago. I was listening to music whilst gazing into the clouds off my balcony in the most intense trip of my life, when things just started feeling wrong, I couldn't work out what it was but then things went into a bad, terrifying trip.

Before that I'd tripped on LSD 10 times before, every time being a fantastic experience.

In the midst of it I couldn't remember my own name and it was utterly terrifying thinking "what on earth have I done, I've bought some random substance off the internet and gone and given myself brain damage".

Of course in the end I did remember my own name and realise what I was doing was safe (relatively speaking!).

But today I went and tripped again, after last time being terrifying, I had a preconceived notion that this trip might go bad - so I wrote on a bit of paper, "If in doubt, change the room or change the track".

That was great advice but the only problem was that when the trip truly hit and things were going well, I read the message I'd posted to myself and started doubting why I'd needed to give myself some kind of 'warning', cue negative thought loops and spirally thoughts out of control. So today I had a second bad trip in a row.

Basically my warning is this: If you go in to your next trip worried about a previous bad trip, it will only make another bad trip more likely to happen :(

It definitely didn't help that today was cloudy and rainy. I ended up shutting the curtains once I could regain control to ride out the rest of the experience without having to look at the gloom outside.