I don’t have anyone to talk to. tw: suicide

Step 1: flush the pills. I get why you bought them. It gives you a sense of control. A sense of having that option open to you. But that’s not the option to take, and having those pills doesn’t actually give you any control. Getting rid of them does.

Step 2: stop worrying about failure so much. Do you know how many times I’ve failed in my life? If you do, please tell me, cuz I’ve honestly lost count. Millions of people fail millions of times in millions of ways every day. It’s a part of being human. Admittedly a shitty part, but still. That’s just life. Your therapist won’t think you’re a failure for feeling worse than you have been lately. Depression comes with ups and downs, and your therapist knows this. You’ll get a little better, get a lot worse, get a bit better again, stay the same for a while, get a lot better, get a little worse... so on and so on, until you find a good way to live with depression. It can take years. Bumps in the road are to be expected. That doesn’t make you a failure, and like I said, even if it did, we’re all failures at one point or another.

Step 3: Something that always helps me when I’m feeling really low: slow down, breathe deep, meditate a bit, and remind yourself that all things pass. Don’t focus on the low point you’re feeling now, but instead focus on the fact that the low point will end in time.

I wish I wasn’t depressed anymore too. I wish nobody was. But we are. Only thing to do is to keep fighting, and every day you wake up is another victory. Best of luck.

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