I don’t deserve it

Ik u have it better than me. And i always think if i was a person like u maybe i didnt wanna die or be sad everyday.

But...material stuff doesnt matter. Stuff= happiness.

Yeah u have everything u need. Everyone should. At least u know that. And i appreciate it.

But....doesnt mean u cant be depressed.

Heres a poem I cried in class over:

Whenever Richard Cory went down town,  We people on the pavement looked at him:  He was a gentleman from sole to crown,  Clean favored, and imperially slim. 

And he was always quietly arrayed,  And he was always human when he talked;  But still he fluttered pulses when he said,  'Good-morning,' and he glittered when he walked. 

And he was rich - yes, richer than a king -  And admirably schooled in every grace:  In fine, we thought that he was everything  To make us wish that we were in his place. 

So on we worked, and waited for the light,  And went without the meat, and cursed the bread;  And Richard Cory, one calm summer night,  Went home and put a bullet through his head.

by Edwin Arlington Robinson

Made me realize even If i got everything. I probably would still be sad. But if I get better money wise I would get everything I need so it might boost me up a bit. But. Wont ever fix me. I would need to work hard for it. Fight it.

Rich or poor. Depression can get u. And it can kill u

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