I feel the same way sometimes. To be honest, I am nervous around men and women, but often prefer to talk to women because it feels safer in a way. I want to talk about my emotions and stuff, and sometimes other men are less inclined to do so.

I was talking with a woman who became my best friend and a romantic interest... unfortunately she got sick because of her MS and went to hospital and she is also in another country...so I haven't heard from her in over a year.

I really love this woman and she is the best friend I've ever had....anyway. Now I'm sad. I miss her so much and think of her often. I hope she's simply alive. She has a young daughter and I hope she is ok, too.

I have to sort of move on...I want to meet people, but I am scared of people... especially men, because they're more likely to be violent than women.