Sorry but I don't have the time nor the energy for anything. Even explanations. I'm literally dead inside. I watched my son fall off his bike and almost crack his head. I didn't care. I know I should. Watched my daughter fall off the couch and scorpion to the point she was choking. I literally just watched. I'm scared of myself more than anything. Just want it to be over. I tried being happy. It lasts 5 minutes. I lost interest motivation , I lost me trying to please people that dgaf about me. Literally crying next to my girl rn and she doesn't do a fucking thing yet when she's sad I go above and beyond to help. I never get the same treatment from anybody. Never been told I love you by my mom until I had my son. Then she wants to be a mother all of a sudden. I've had a pretty fucked up life and it's not gonna get any better. It's better if I just remove myself out of the equation permanently. My only happiness is imagining my death