Took me a couple months to feel the loss of my mum. I knew what happened, I just had no immediate emotional reaction.

I remember being told about the accident and rather than crying I wanted to know the extent of the injuries to understand what was happening etc. Too much brain swelling.

I remember telling my brother mum was in a serious accident and is in critical care with potentially a broken neck (what we were initially told) and he burst into tears straight away and all I could think at that moment was "what is wrong with me"

A couple months afterwards, I wake up in the middle of the night and I'm an emotional wreck. Didn't answer my phone, didn't go to work just lay in bed in like a state of shock/despair. My boss ended up coming over morning break. He said he seen me unravelling and was expecting this. Seems others new but not me.

Good boss.