I'm glad you're not depressed anymore. That's interesting, if they were for both of you. And I understand about being bad at expressing feelings through speech and better with written word.
I'm so sorry they treated you that way! I know someone who said she didn't want to have sex, and her boyfriend had sex with her anyways. She broke up with him because that's rape, but at the time (he was MUCH bigger than her) she decided it would just be easier to not fight back, since it could have ended up very poorly if she chose to try to fight him off. The problem with some people on TwoX is they give their private/personal opinion in that sub, instead of a third-party, diplomatic opinion which is much more helpful. I know that's what I want when I come onto the internet for advice of any kind! Doing the same thing in a situation like this is just a coping mechanism, that's not saying you're willing. That's just absurd.
That's like, when you ask someone "what would you do if you got attacked by a bear?" and they said they'd fight it off, duh. That's not necessarily true...you don't know what's going to happen in a crisis until that crisis happens to you. You can prepare for them all you want, you can research how to kill a bear in case you run into one on a camping trip, but that doesn't mean you're going to know what to do. Because it's a crisis, and your brain goes into the primitive fight or flight system. If you can't fight or run away from it, you have to find a way to deal with it. You can try to kill the bear, you could choose to play dead, or you could run. But sometimes even preparing for it doesn't mean you know how you're exactly going to react. And I don't think people understand that about any crisis situation ever. Some people are like awe yeah, zombies! But I guarantee you they wouldn't survive long in a zombie apocalypse.
Since it didn't happen to them I don't think they understand what it was like. However, I'm just making a lot of assumptions I know I probably shouldn't about the situation because I never saw the original thread. I always delete mine when I get put down a lot, too. I don't need that negativity clogging up my internets.
If you ever want to try counseling again(no pressure!), that might be a good time to express yourself in a journal and then allow the therapist to read it. My therapist always asked to look at my sketchbooks, because I expressed myself a lot through drawing, and she would just look at them, ask me questions, and ask why I decided to draw certain things. I'm sure other therapists could do the same with a journal! You could keep one on your computer, and password protect the heck out of it so you don't have to worry about it being physical and easily found. I did this for a short time in middle school, but I ended up talking out my feelings to my cat a little bit more. It actually helped a lot.