Maybe I should explain further, too.

I don't feel my laziness as a fear to fail. I feel it as a reluctance to give up leisure-time activities that I enjoy. I feel it as a reluctance to take on the daily hassles that invariably come with added responsibility. Upon reflection, I feel it as a fear that I will eventually be put in a position to have to make a choice when my personal ethics conflict with the good of the organization, and the general American Way of Life. In such a situation, I wouldn't feel that I'd failed the organization and its people. I'd feel like the organization had failed me, by asking me to betray my personal ethics in the same ways that most organizations eventually do to everyone.

I have failed before, many times. Failure is a necessary part of any success. It's how I learn. So, I'm not so inclined to feel fear of my own failure.

I have a strong tendency to say, "It would all become a huge shit sandwich, and not as much fun as I'd hoped, and it's all driven by desire in the first place, and even if it's driven by compassion, it wouldn't really help anyone because it's just not possible to really help people. It would mean giving up Lord of the Rings Online and Reddit for nothing but frustration and stress."

Maybe there's a fear of personal failure in there, too, but I don't usually feel it.