I don't know how to cope anymore. I'm a burden, and it would be better if I was dead.

Hi there, I'm 16 and have had (and continue to have) the same problem. In lieu of my age, I'm in no position to help you out but I shall relate my circumstance. I've felt like this on multiple occasions and to this day, I feel as such, a burden. Not a day goes by when I don't think of the past, rewind every incident and consider myself a burden. And the same thought has entered my mind upon multiple occasions owing to multifarious reasons. As cheesy and immature as this may seem, it was by God that I am still alive. But regardless of whether you're a person of faith or not, you should realize that there is always one thought that will and must keep you going regardless of situation. A day came when I decided to do it, but I stopped realizing what I would be doing. I'm extremely rational, and before people get the wrong idea, the kind of Christian who thinks evolution and scientific principles and so forth are right (unless disproven). I live because I have one motto, even if all I know look through me, even if I'm a burden to be borne, I will live to see another day 'because he lives.' There must be something for you too, something that will and must keep you going. Regardless of all my achievements, I have felt that I am the object of shame and someone looked down upon (though that may or may not be true). I've been a victim of unrequited love for three years and continue to be so. I have a very low self esteem and what confidence I have is oft determined by circumstance. No one is meant to live alone? I'm not sure what you mean. Bu as of now, not a singular soul knows the extent of what I feel like on a daily basis. I have not, and will never let anyone know. Why? Because I have that one thing that keeps me going. The very fact that you have a goal, suicide, on mind is what makes you a burden. Let go of that, let go of the things that hold you back. And do not think, even for a moment, that you are the cause of something that you are obviously not responsible for. As for friends, as far as I've seen, there is no such thing as a true friend. All betray, all lie. Every human upon this planet will betray you. All are opportunists and that is the truth. It is my belief that I should be as supporting as I can to any all, yet trust none too much. You're 28. You have a life. No unrequited love, parents who have never once mentioned you're a burden, a degree and access to the world. Make use of it. And if I may, this is something I do quite a lot these days, I'm sorry if this seems off here in this 'wall of text', try, just for once, to read any chapter, any letter of the New Testament. Read it not as a religious book or so, read it first and foremost for the message it delivers. Live, we only live once.

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