We do have an age gap (we are both consenting ADULTS) and I do have more relationship experience than him. I had a very serious relationship before him, whereas I was his first. I think he needs time to mature in relationships. I had a lot of faults in this don't get me wrong, but I placed him above even myself and poured everything I had and all the love I had into him and not enough for myself and that's where I messed up most in my opinion.

I hope he finds himself truly happy someday & is able to learn from his mistakes as I once had to and will have to even now. This was amazing advice and I appreciate it. I've been focusing on self-care and I'm glad to say I'm okay now. I think I've been checked out of that relationship for a long time but was still in love with him, but now I'm realizing the man I loved was gone for a long time too & I'm over being in an unhappy relationship so I'm okay now. I'm feeling so much better.

I don't feel the urge to message or call him anymore, I just struggle when he tries to talk to me but I'm doing pretty solid and I'm proud of myself.