I don't understand you anymore

What I want. Is You. This distance makes it hard to understand. Very little upsets me as I've learnt over the years to process my thoughts & then respond. I'm not good at responding immediately when confronted with a subject that I may well be guilty of & in need of addressing. The reason it takes me time is because if I don't contemplate my thoughts I will get defensive & automatically say something to self sabotage myself, say words that'll sting both you & indirectly I. Why because I am an open book & my heart on full display when its the woman I love or family members. Friends don't see how compassionate I am for I can feel peoples energy. More than intuition, people speak with their body & I see this clearly. Everything you did made me the happiest I have ever been not how you perceived me.Where I've changed is I made too many changes since I stepped off that plane too quickly & it overwhelmed me. I persisted relentlessly for half a year. I'm proud of what I have achieved bar one BIG point. I lost the happy confident man I was because of how I enforced my self change. I relaxed my goals since New Years & what a difference. I'm still aiming & acting on the new path that you inspired me to embrace. I always had it & desired it. You gave me the loving nudge that propelled me there quicker. I will always be thankful for everything you've done for me. Intelligence, this may surprise you? Secret...You far surpass myself & the majority of people. I gazed upon you in awe for you are a old soul wise beyond your lifetime. I mustn't have given you enough recognition for I did listen to all you said. I had a colourful life & one you see in movies I'll say. I wanted a normal life & I made that decision years ago on the spot. Harmony is something I ceaselessly seek & I'm getting there. I am sadened that you question everything I am pursuing. I will do whatever it takes to make our relationship work. I'm not perfect. I do try. No I don't want a girl, a woman I want an equal I am growing to become your King as you are already a Queen in her own right. When we met & talked openly about our dreams & goals, you reignited my passion for literally everything. I had put them on the backburner for many years because of my past relationships. I have said more than I'm willing to on here considering I could be writing to anyone lol. Thank you all the same as I have wanted to say this to her & so much more for a long time. Was I scared yes. You were haunted by some of what occurred in your past? You'll judge me incorrectly about my past which I learnt so much yet not who I now am. I'm scared of very little which is but one of many more characteristics about me. I'm writing my very overdue letter tonight & not on here. I love you & I want you to more than stay, your the most defining woman who is more than a soulmate, my best friend, lover like no other before, my better half, my soul companion, my significant other, You are everything that makes me strive to be a better Man for never have I felt such a connection with anyone on such a level. We read each others thoughts, ring a the same time, so many similar tastes & desires. I stand here an open book & I will answer any & all your questions to the best of my ability.

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