my dad doesnt aim for embarresment(most of the times). but he often tells me that others opinions shudnt matter, this is between u and me, let em hear if they want. honestly i might have turned suicidal when i was young, but i never got the thoughts for some reason, i just kind of rolled around and lay in my filthy life. i deff think im broken in some way or the other inside due to my shitty personality and tempramental parents. maybe one day i can completely bury this shit. my parents have changed a bit too. there was a time where my father would throw stuff(including chairs) around the house when i would get a note from my teachers complaining that i havent completed my homework. i think he used to do this stuff when i was in elementary too. even if he meant it for the best(and i deff see alot of his reasoning) it still may have broken me as a person a little bit