I feel you dude, I'm in the exact situation. I graduated in graphic design this past December and while I've only technically been unemployed for a little over a month, I've been essentially "unemployed" in my head. A month went by after I graduated and I started picking up more shifts at my bar and have known since that I wanted to quit so bad because of usual problems like shitty management and drunks. More than that, I wanted to start my career and use what I actually learned, but I was still in relax mode after killing myself studying and staying up to finish homework. So I didn't start looking for jobs until about April, which was around time I put in my notice. I thought quitting without a job would force to find one, and fortunately I managed to find a freelance design job working with a friend.

It only lasted two weeks and I was pretty much done with my bar job when the freelance job finished so I have been unemployed since the beginning of May and it's really hard. I made awesome friends in school, but it was a commuter school. We were really close because of my design program where we all had the same classes together for two years, and I've tried to stay in touch, but we're all spread apart throughout Los Angeles county which means we all might as well be in a different state. The reality is it seems like now they're just acquaintances and my real friends (and where I'm from) is two hours south of me. I don't plan on moving back to my hometown any time soon because my girl won't be done with her Master's for a few years so it just gets real lonely as she works a regular 9-5 job and I'm broke so I'm stuck at home all day, which makes looking for a job feel like an absolute chore.

People keep telling me the same thing, keep grinding, keep hustling, you'll find something, blah blah blah. I really don't want to go back to customer service. My girl knows I'm working hard to find a real job, but she's been having to foot some of the bills the past couple months and she's kinda hounding me to set a deadline for myself if I haven't found a real job then to look into a customer service or whatever. I just quit my bar job because it almost caused us to break up and I wanted to focus on my design work and now she wants me to go back. I totally understand why, I don't want her to pay for all of our bills, but I feel like I would be wasting time looking for a shit job that I don't see myself last at.