This answer might be wholly inappropriate, but bear with me. I ...well, in my spare time I sometimes work as a cerebral domme. Meaning I rarely touch, I dunna have sex with my subs, ever. I talk, I read people and hit their subconscious desires.

The point being they often describe a similar feeling that makes them feel carnal, gives them a strong fight or flight response, and they feel totally satisfied when I'm done not-touching them. They dunna get this from regular vanilla sex, there's a tension and instinctive response that comes from your comfort and safety being challenged. They call it "love" or a religious experience; I call it an instinctive response to being left vulnerable.

So, let's not apply this to your 7 yr old self. (That's creepy.) But you might very well be a primal or a sub in the kink regions, where you need adrenaline and a purely detached, mental connection to your situation to get that twitch of goosebumps that dances behind your ribs to your... hips.

I realize this sounds incredibly predatory and creepy from a stranger, and I'm saying it here rather than in your inbox because of that. Many adults are looking for that "more than an orgasm" feeling and end up feeling disappointed instead because they have no idea what prompts it.