As odd as this may be, I too em stuck in this routine. Although the man that has stolen not just my heart but my soul isn't just in my dreams. He's part of the fantasy I like to believe in which is dreamt. It so silly, I am not a girl who gets all worked up over someone like this. I truly wish I could shake it. But, somethings got it grip, my heart won't let this go, neither will my soul. It yearns to hear his sound, it beats in rythum to it. Strange, I know. Maybe I'm crazy? No, I'm not, I'm struggling with such ridiculousness. I mean how could this even be. I've fallen for a man who's known by so many, yet by few. I wish to know the true version, the one hidden from view. I wish to know whats inside his mind. But how's a girl supposed to breach a wall. So many have come before me, many even still now.. how can someone get through when it's nothing new to this man. Ughh. I need to let this go, I don't want to be another one of those girls. I wish I could be free of this feeling.. then there are what ifs, and I need to trys... I just want my heart to beat like it did when I heard him live. I'm just a silly women who shouldnt be so enamored with sound.
Sorry I needed to vent. My situation is actually not like yours but, it stuck a cord and I needed to release my feelings. No one close to me, gets me, so they wouldn't understand, even if i tried to explain what was going on. It's a lonely life is ntil you find your one.
Maybe your dreams have truth to them, maybe they are reassuring you, she out there.. I truly feel she is. I've known love I grew up within that love, it's real. Dont give up, your dreams don't want you too!
With that, I shall too. If nothing atleast I would know I did what I had control of. Then atleast I could be done and get of this whole thing.