First of all you and your mother are awesome people. I'm glad you shared your story. Risk of disability is not my main reason for deciding not to have children. If I ever change my mind, which I doubt would happen. I would rather adopt an older kid. The thought of being pregnant terrifies me and I'm an anxious person as well. I, myself am autistic but it's only mild but it's were people can tell I that I have it. Loud noises bother me and I bury my emotions and I can't handle stress well. I don't think I'll be able to handle the challenge of raising any child. But thanks again for sharing your story. Your mom sounds like an incredible person.