Education failure, joblessness, infantilization through financial support, could use advice and/or encouragement

I am in my early 30s and in similar situation. was living on my own for a while, now living at home again and depressed and anxious like never in my life. I was sheltered and was supported financially. I realize now that my any attempt of doing something towards my independence was discouraged a lot to the point when I was threatened with dangers of the outside world. I got my first minimum wage job at 25. I managed to get my education, but due to anxiety and depression still work at minimum wage job and struggle to move out (though I am working on getting a job in my profession someday). Nmom shames and makes fun of me for that now. I get overwhelmed with how many milestones I've missed apart from this one, but I am also trying to change my thinking (I read some books on CBT and DBT). What I am trying to tell that people like us just should keep on trying and pushing ourselves to do things when we feel like giving up especially. If we don't, nothing will change for better, right? and if we do, there is a chance that little by little there will be a positive change. In my opinion it is worth trying any job really. Any level of education you can obtain now will definitely help you to improve your financial situation. There are also jobs that provide training for new workers too. It is still hard to me to have a clear picture what i wanna do with my life too, but I also realize that I have to try different things and have some life experiences in order to find out. "take a step and the road will appear by itself" (a little cliche maybe :) Just be patient and kind to yourself and keep building your life, no matter what your age is it is never too late.

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