...and when someone pops that bubble? Superior is a shitty place to reside. Equals is wiser. Some of what we need to access comes from humility and no where else.

I agree.

Btw...this was the first time you stated your gender and it didnt feel like a lie. :)

Generally I dont lie that much. I lie about myself and my feelings. I dont lie about my actions online.

Btw. My manic episode is gone :P (lasted 2-3 days). I overuse my body in manic episodes, like staying awake 30 hours or something. I cant simply meditate or sitting still, I have to constantly do something. I have constantly the storm of thoughts then.

Now its normal state. I am relaxed, a bit sleepy, but its okay. I am focused, I can sit still listening gentle music or watching something. Also there is no anxiety in my normal state, when I am in manic episode I can be nervous or jittery. Also I dont overuse my body in normal state. So now I feel okay and relaxed. I dont have many thoughts, I can simply rest.

I like both of these states. In manic state I have more energy, in my normal state I have lower energy. Thats how my body works since childhood. Of course I dont have any bipolar or something.