Stay strong. I’ve been through what you’re going through. More times than I’d care to admit honestly lol. I went back, not because of poor self esteem or being weak, but because I valued family above all.

He begged too and cried and swore up and down that he hit rock bottom. I was so convinced he would change and...guess what OP. After two years of the happiest we’d ever been and constant communication...our relationship hit the expiration date yet again.

He told me he cheated months ago and he couldn’t live with the guilt. Commence the crying and begging again lol.

Everyone has their limit and deep down that night I knew something died.

Going back is easy. You know her. You love her. You won’t have to worry about a divorce or separation. Those fears about being alone forever or not being able to love again are resolved. We fear the unknown.

I’ve been reading your posts and couldn’t help but admire you, honestly. We are a lot alike. We aren’t capable to hurting our loved ones, to lie, to betray. At the end of the day OP, you are a treasure amongst so much unfaithful trash. You value marriage, you’re honest and you seem like a man of integrity.

You deserve someone who values those traits. Someone who sees you for who you are and will do anything in their power to hold on to you. Trust me, I’m one, and like me there are many, many others.

People who are capable of cheating and betraying those they share a bed with are not good people and they simply don’t deserve what we bring to the table.

I wish you so much happiness and luck.