I ended my 5 year relationship

Reading this reminds me of my toxic ass relationship. I just struggle with who’s shoes I’d be in. You or your bfs. I too had major problems with depression but I thought the person I was with was madly in love with me so I chose never to break it off cause I never wanted to hurt her. I slowly became the worst version of myself in hopes that she’d hate me and break up with me. We both said stuff to each other I’m sure she regrets at least I know I do. Deep down there was something about her I loved and it made me want to make our relationship work but I couldn’t bring myself to try. Kinda hoping that I’d get support from her to push me in the right direction and make me want to try. I never got it. In the end when I started working on myself and the relationship it was already to late. One last straw that broke the camels back was all it took for Her to break up. I wasn’t going to text her to talk it out and get back together again like we’ve done many times before that. I felt it was pointless and this time it felt real like I knew even if I tried her mind was made up about the kind of person I was and she clearly was ready to move on. Good on you for taking control of your life maybe you’ll meet again in the future as different changed people and who knows but at least you know right now y’all can’t help each other. You can’t help him and he can’t help you. Also I was on tinder 2 or 3 days after my break up but I was mostly just seeking validation on my looks and strike up conversations with people. I wouldn’t dwell on it just move on :)

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