Yes and no.

I'm learning to fit in, I'm learning to be content with what I have, it's working well at the moment but I really don't know where it will go.

I often feel trapped by both society and boredom.

I loathe having to get along with people. I loathe having to pretend to be someone I'm not to keep them happy, I loathe been held back.

Try too little and you're lazy, no one will like you.

Try too hard and people get jealous and not like you.

You didn't smile at someone when they smiled at you? They might not like you now.

People like to say that Psycopaths are effortless manipulators. That's a lie.

It takes effort. Constant effort just to fit in with those around you. To not come off as quiet, cold and unemotional. Even when it becomes automatic it's still tiring. Maybe this will change. I'm still quite young compared to most self-aware Psycopaths I've had discussions with, so maybe with time it will become easier.

While I'm not so stupid as to actually commit murder and ruin my life I can see why some Psycopaths might do it.

To show people that the world isn't as perfect as they think? To show them that they really are insignificant? To show them just how pointless all their little worries and judgements really are?

Wouldn't that be grand.

Instead I'm thinking of channeling that energy into starting my own company. 9-5 Career progression is the epitome of tedium and lots of money is the best solution to escape from the constant boredom.