I cried watching a show my brother and I used to watch years ago (it was mostly the music) probably because on some level I miss him. I mean it's not my fault he's gone and become an asshole who's pretty dickish to our parents but to see him literally go from one end to the other wasn't fun to watch. Plus I did raise him due to absent parents. For all intents and purposes he's dead to me at the moment. But it doesn't mean that the memories fade.

I dunno there's a decent list that I wouldn't share online. It isn't one but unless you're close to me or someone i'd be seeing for psychotherapy i have no reason to share it.

You can lose everything - money, status, power, fame and still rebuild yourself but certain human connections can't be rebuilt, people die, people can be lost - if you don't appreciate the ones important to you when they're still around you're going to regret it. We aren't islands. I've got most things I want in life but what I value the most are the people who are closest to me since even I lost everything they'd be there and they often have helped me out as well. You don't always find people like that but when you do - treat them nicely and cherish them.