I would like to quote a dialogue from mr robot, a tv show of a guy with mental problems and hacking. In season 2, he meets a friend, who tells him this "Existence can be beautiful, or can be Ugly, but that's on you" i have struggled with the same question over and over for years. if universe is going to die an ugly cold death, does anything we do matters? The true answer is it doesn't. But so what, you have one life, might as well enjoy it, if you don't like where you are, move, you are not a tree. if your friends are assholes, don't talk to them. they'd surely understand why you don't (personal experience). what i mean to say is, you know the answer to the meaning of you're life. it doesn't matter. so make it matter. live you're life. love your life.(this doesn't help, but trust me, it does get better). don't take rejection too seriously. love yourself. change yourself. do what you love. you got one life.(I'm an athiest), and you won't get another. it doesn't matter what people think of you. what you know of you're self is what that matters. live you're life like you're in an adventure movie. it doesn't have to be the best, as long as you're okay with it. if it works for you, you don't have to think about anybody else. if you're sad, do what makes you happy. don't try to make others happy. try to make yourself happy. if the people who like to see you happy try to get close with you, let them, they love you. i know what it's like to be lonely. it kills. i know a random advice from a random person ain't gonna matter to you, but I'm telling you, the good people of reddit, even though i discovered this community /subreddit recently, it made me realise I'm not alone. and niether are you.