Have you ever had a crush you absolutely did not want?

My best friend!

He wasn't my best friend when the crush started, but as we became closer as friends my crush grew really big. To this day I honestly believe he was the first guy I was ever in love with because I had never felt so strongly for anyone before and even to this day I haven't felt that for anyone.

I didn't hate the feelings I had for him in the beginning, we were both single and flirting alllll the time and hung out all the time so it was fun to be able to be that close with him and stuff. But after a few months (about 6) he started dating girls and eventually got himself a girlfriend. I had to force myself not to stop liking him. Either that or suffer seeing them together or stop speaking to him entirely, which was not an option. The first month or 2 of them dating was really hard for me, but over time I got to know her, liked her, saw they were happy/good for each other and eventually the feelings slowly went away. I dated one guy for a month or 2, although we were never "official" because he didn't want to be too serious yet and I actually wasn't even the slightest bit attracted to him. Did stuff with him to try and get over my friend but it didn't work. Took some time off of talking to guys, then met this other idiot who I was actually official with for 2 months, realized he was a loser and learned what I actually wanted in a SO. Then a little while later met my current SO and everything is wonderful!

I still feel a little attachment to him. We're still best friends, still talk and see each other every day, and we're both dating people and I love my boyfriend and he loves his girlfriend and I wouldn't want to date my friend even if I had the chance. But there's always a small part of me that I think will always be in love with him no matter how in love I am with my boyfriend or how long we are friends. I make sure to not compare my feelings for him to my feelings towards my SO or any guy I ever dated because I think they will all always be different, and because he was my first I don't think anyone will ever really be able to compare.

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