Tbh I only did it a hand full of times when I was younger. I’m 24 now and the only reason I did it was because my extrovert friends brought me out of my cave to do so. I’m not going to lie I hated being at parties. I think it’s kind of funny that I had a girl try to talk to me and I was more interested in understanding myself than wanting to pay her any attention. I honestly do feel the same with out it too. And as well the last time I got high I was just around people smoking and it was literally the worst high I had the worst anxiety of my life and it was like I was double high for some reason. 18 was a weird year of my life. After that day though I just left my friends behind and thought this is not the life for me too much social stuff and doing reckless things. I just never felt right in those environments and my body rejected everything I literally wanted to like it but couldn’t and I truly don’t understand how people enjoy being on drugs. I felt like a roach that took a shower in some raid and folded up. But yeah I feel you I’m perplexed at my design and find the simplest of things interesting. Just like how the veins of a leaf look like a 2D drawing of itself. I tend never stop thinking about the complexity of things and what it could do or what it means.